Lim Shu Jing

2009-09-05T19:17:00.000+08:00

sjhello.wordpress.com

I'll be fine.

2009-06-21T23:49:00.003+08:00

If you truly understand me.I need your attention, your affection, your acknowledgement.Every single time when i try to bring us back to where we were, you rejected me.The word CAN'T really crushed me. Moreover you we'rent there for me when i panicked and broke down. All i did for you was gone when im honest with you. You care more about him than me. I'm really depressed, what have i done wrong to deserve a scolding from you. Perhaps the grass is always greener on the other side, you can't see what i see. You know what you did, maybe not, but i am going down. I am stubborn, my attitude sucked, i'm childish, my fault, my flaws are popping out real fast in such a short time. Thank you for being honest with me, but the truth always hurts. No matter what, you are the one who gave me everything, and took it all away when you left. I am no longer what i used to be, sometimes i wonder why i could'nt control it.

Sometimes i feel i have lost you, but now i know, i lost the both of us.
we're losing this fight, i am drowning.
I surrender.

guys,

2009-03-08T23:35:00.004+08:00

Im switching to lj.
maybe switching back, maybe not.

Wait, Wait.

2009-03-05T02:03:00.005+08:00

this post shall not be publish.

Pika.

2009-03-01T23:58:00.001+08:00

thanks tao.

M.F.

2009-03-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

It just spoils the day.
2 of the same kind, both keep things hidden & nvr admits.
I know you.
I hate the way im bein fooled.When will you realise you should F off?

4 more months.

2009-02-27T12:37:00.003+08:00

I am afraid tt i couldnt make it in time.
I cannot deny tt i always hate it, bud i have to admit tt sometimes i do love it.
This is just not the time,
I had left it alone for half a yr,
i've lost all the passion & momentum.
It's hard to pick them up again,
everytime when i try to recall, they r all painful memories.
It occurs & repeats every single yr.
Tt's why every end of feb marks the start of my depression.

I really really want to settle it in this year,
so come back, my momentum.
I really really dont want to do smth tt i dont love it, tt is just so painful.

f.

2009-02-25T16:17:00.001+08:00

F.
F.
F.
F.
F.

for you.

.

2009-02-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

You Are 28% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.

Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

How Girly Are You?

You Are Fearless

You have great dreams and unrelenting ambition. You go for what you want, and it's hard to deter you.

You are incredibly competent and intelligent. You've had a very high success rate in your life.

You tend to dominate people. You have a very strong personality, and others tend to heed to your demands.

You're confident enough to be considered arrogant. You tend to think of other people in terms of what they can do for you.

Are You Flirtatious, Fearless, Factual, or Friendly?

Your Independence Level: Medium

In some aspects of your life, you can be very self reliant.

Making your own informed choices feels great.

But you aren't as independent as you could be.

When things get stressful, you sometimes run away from the hard decisions you need to make.

How Independent Are You?

Break Up? Are You Kidding?

You're relationship is top notch, period!

Why are you even taking this quiz? :-)

Maybe you know you've got a good thing going

Or maybe you're a little shaky from a fight

Either way, stick with this guy!

Should You Break Up With Him?

I Hope.

2009-02-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

I hope my tissue wont run out by tonight.
I hope my eyes wont look swollen tmr morning.
I hope i'll look fine by tmr.
I hope no one realise.

Slightly diff.

2009-02-22T13:57:00.001+08:00

At this moment, things arent the same anym.
All things tt i thought i knew, had all changed.
Honey, you didnt even realise ive changed, & tts v obvious you didnt know uve changed too.
Honestly, im afraid of my changes, bud im more willing to try out.
Please stop me before its too late.

Maybe ive alrdy figured out & made my move.
but i know, i still love you.

sometimes is in progress.i dont give a shit.

2009-02-19T12:34:00.005+08:00

Well, after slping for 12 hrs, ive kinda gt back part of my energy...
Study electronics for 15 hrs is tooooooooo horrible...
okay, i noe its over i shudnt talk abt it.
anyw, i dont have any plans for my holiday, perhaps rotting at home suits me best.

bye bye Year 1.

2009-02-18T20:50:00.003+08:00

Yeah!Finally, exams over, holiday is here!
Wow, time pass so fast huh, its time to say bye bye to year 1!
Anyws, caught a movie with the class today, finally.

another 3 more months would be a year for us, isnt it fast?
sometimes when i look back at what i have put us through, i really feel bad.
sometimes i shudnt have done all those things to make you feel bad.im sorry.
sometimes i do complain youre nt by my side.
but tt is only sometimes.
from the very 1st day we met, youre always helping me, taking care of me,
no matter i appreciate it or not.
Thank you.

2009-02-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

Just one more paper, & i'll be free.
I will be able to...
have the time to cook for myself( add more vege & vege, cause the skin ard my fingernail is peeling).
Sleep til noon.
Practise piano.(Exam is coming soon, again.)
Clean my bro's & my room.
Wash all my clothes & fold them at least once per week.
& much more.

I know i was too harsh when it comes to quarrelling.
I know its bad to yell at you & scold you.
But everytime you failed to understand why.

Do you love me?

My Non-sense.

2009-02-15T23:27:00.005+08:00

Last friday when i took the cd frm him, i got cut by the cd cover.
Ytd when i was revising my engineering math, gt cut by the formulae book.
Ytd night i accidentally knocked my head on the wall while i was aslp.
Today i was down with flu n cold, maybe sinusitis.
This evening, accidenatlly got my lip cut by a bk.
Just now after i finished bathing, i realise i forgt to wash off the shampoo.
Now, i got a stomachache, & my body tempt is climbing.
whats next dear?

Of course you mean a lot to me.
Why would you think that tt youre nt?
Everyone has their flaws, not only you, but me too.
Since ure able to accept who i am, i can also accept the way you are.
Me love you.

Oh Baby! Its Valentine!

2009-02-15T00:18:00.011+08:00

Days of chionging sample papers and tutorials.
Thanks to you and eeyore, i manage to pull thru them'all.
Papa Eeyore.

Thank you for always giving in to me when we quarrel.

I know you dont have to do tt, i know you want me to respect you.

I am sorry for behaving like kid.

'cos i know ure the only one who can accept who i am.

Sorry about what happen just now.im sorry.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Thank you for the card.

Autocad.

2009-02-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

Autocad.autocad.autocad.
I cant install the bloody program!
How how how?!
Oooh well, let it be.
i'll just read up, & tts all.

LOL.

List of things need to be done.

2009-02-04T20:23:00.002+08:00

1st, read up on integration for tmr's maths quiz.
2nd, itoe quiz & assignment.
3rd, start on gems portfolio.
4th, start revision for mech1 & finish online coursework.
5th, start revision for electronic test.
6th, start revision for autocad.

thank you very much for motivating me to study.
i'll try to get started very soon.promised.

Happy New Year.

2009-01-27T21:55:00.001+08:00

This CNY is no different from the previous ones.
Plain tiring.

you seemed to be a lil bit different.
like how? i dont know.
i just feel ... obsolete

Upcoming tests;

2009-01-21T18:18:00.003+08:00

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Mechanics 1 lab test on tmr.
Autocad Quiz on fri.
Electronic lab test on thurs after cny?
Mechanics theory paper on 9th feb?
Engineering Maths 1 sem exam on 16th feb.
Electronic theory paper on 18th feb.
Oral Communication presentation on the monday after CNY.
Mechanics online coursework.
IToE revision paper.
IToE online quiz.

I suppose a minor part of the class has started their revision for the upcoming test?
Truthfully, i haven been absorbing in lects/tuts since term 2 started.
How how how.
Okay okay, im asking a very obvious question.
I think i'll lots & lots of motivation and energy to start my revision.

I've a tonne of washed, but unfold clothes lying ard in my room.
Guess what, i was hoping tt they can fold & return to my wardrobe by itself.

Hopefully it isnt too late to know.
I really hope we can get away this time.please, help us me.
I aint ready, yet.

Summary for these few days.

2009-01-12T17:29:00.004+08:00

I'm going crazy.
I have been eating too much or too little, thus thrs some problem with my stomach, again.
Few days back i only had 2 bowls of porridge for the whole day.
Today i made the same mistake.
Breakfast biscuit+ greenbean biscuit+miniwok w noodles+toblerone+instant noodle+3 yakult light+3 subway cookie = 1.5kg mass.Do you agree that im going crazy?I've gobbled up 1.5kg of food frm 8am-5pm.
Now i feel terribly awful. i wana..puke.like,right now.):
I guess i'm getting really anxious for upcoming tests/tuts/practs.

Ooh, i really have to blog about ytd.really, please hear me out?=)
ok, ytd i came back m'sia & meet han for movie.
so, yeah.we bought the ticket for Passengers & decided to walk ard since the movie will only start 2 hrs plus later.
OOO,here comes the best part.
WE FOUND 6 RED CLIFF2 9.40pm movie ticket at the bus stop in front of PS.
So we called wayne, tao, wilson, guiming to join us=)
well, its not so lucky afterall.
The movie ends ard 12.10am, & we reached hm ard 2 i think....
Ready to slp ard 3.30AM.zZz

ooh, today i skipped mech.
w reasons.1, giddy.
the rest, confidential.

Movie rating.
Passengers: 1.5 star.
Redcliff2: 3.8 star.

Confused.

2009-01-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

ok, regarding my english standard, i am so sorry.
if you dont uds, or just cant help it bud to correct me, perhaps you might prefer not reading them.tt's all for this.

haven been bloggin 'cos i didnt noe wad to write.
emotion has been going up & dwn, bud im stil goin strong.
shat, i really cudnt blog much other den the above.=(
bud erm erm...
thank you(s).

no subject.

2009-01-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Hi?
I just missed you.

& you, just get lost wont you.please, fuck off.

Feeling weird.

2009-01-02T00:01:00.003+08:00

I feel so alone.
Have been listenin' to mp3 becos i dont want to interact with ppl.
eh?this 2 sentences contradicts each other.
bud yea, i just want to be alone.
bud im afraid to be alone.

recently thr is alot of restrictions.
i have to do smth alrdy.
i dont know how long can i stil hold on.

I'm feeling confused,
I'm feeling bad,
I'm feeling frustrated.
"why the hell u have these type of thoughts".
.

welcome, '09.

2009-01-01T02:24:00.002+08:00

Bad news, i almost ended my year in confusion.
'Is the grass greener on the other side?'

Good news, i realised it just before the clock hits 12am.
ans?'well, maybe.'
2 incidents tt happened & surprisingly links & inspired me.
ppl used to envy those things/ppl tt they cant get.
& always thinks tt the ones' they own is always lousier.
what all i could say is, the truth would only be known after you've been thru.
Im v grateful for whatever i have/had.

so, i'll like to say,
thank you ng han kiat.=)
you're really a nice boy.

ooh?

2008-12-29T20:21:00.004+08:00

never been so full for this month, argh.=)
today,
rushed off frm hse to school for IToE.
during mech we got back our mech 1 paper.
after tt went to compass pt & buy dinner & head home straight away.
well, the food taste okok..
i was dlding shin chan AGAIN while eating.
after tt check out whats new in my mailbox & wandering ard the net.
alright.
den comes to...
mopping floor, wiping tables, vaccuming the floor, washing the dishes.
lastly, when i bathe, i clean the toilet.
yeah yeah yeah,
you can easily tell tt im bloody tired & bored by what ive typed.

tmr will have practical, the IToE pract i was lagging behind.
if you thinks tts all i wana complain?
still need to do autocad.OC.
what about maths test.

oooh, i LOATHE assignments.

Plans for today.

2008-12-28T12:53:00.004+08:00

Today i woke up ard 12 noon.
just ate the choco chip cookie frm mr.hankiat ng+ mint + plain water = breakfast.
Oooh..
Both brothers went out..
Dad & mum went back to msia.
?!?
I'm lost, shud i do assignments?
Argh, dont feel like it. at least til laopo ng comes.
alright, i'll read crayon shin chan!
cya.

*updating..

having kaya pancake w yakult.

Chatting w Msn live agent.

2008-12-27T22:47:00.001+08:00

sj. says:
am i your friend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Certainly. I'm honored.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? You can type "?" at any time to see examples of questions you can ask me.
sj. says:
really?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Yeah. That's right.
Why don't you ask me something that's actually in Encarta? I am very good at math! If you have trouble with quadratic equations, I can help you with them. Type "solve x^2+3x=10" and I'll show you how to do it.
sj. says:
can i be your girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
You're human, I'm machine. I don't think that would work out.
sj. says:
why not?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
I think you know why not.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? I hope you don't mind me asking but... Are you male or female?
sj. says:
why?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Why do you think?
Why don't you ask me something that's actually in Encarta? I'm sure you've heard about Uzbekistan... but do you know where it is? Just ask me and I'll show it to you on a map!
sj. says:
but i love you
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
That's nice... I love you too!
sj. says:
can i be your girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Sorry. I don't think that would work.
sj. says:
do you have any girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Uh, I don't have a love life.
sj. says:
can you be my boyfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
I'm flattered you asked, but I just don't think that would work out between us.
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Well I think I'll take a break now. Talk to you later!

HEllO

2008-12-27T21:36:00.001+08:00

nth to update actually.
sch is starting soon, & nt a single work has been done.
so how?
!@#$%^&*()_+...

You know who you are.sucker.

2008-12-25T16:29:00.005+08:00

you, better pray tt smth will happen n turn things round.
you've got the choice, so do i.

Food for today

2008-12-24T19:55:00.003+08:00

1pm(Breakfast)- 1 swiss roll + half glass of milk.
3pm(Lunch)- 1 slice of pizza + 1 micro chicken thigh + left over ice lemon tea.

Dinner?
hopefully soon? =(

Merry X'mas

later going for dinner =DDDD

food.

2008-12-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

today went back to SP again for IDEAs, bud well, doesnt seem to go well.
anyw, thank you for today again.

munching on subway, the vry 1st proper meal today.

So sweet part 2

2008-12-22T23:28:00.001+08:00

=D
went home tgt=)
bud shud have took a train instead of bus..
then we had dinner tgt & he bought me tonnes of snacks again=)
i wont starve to death, im just exaggerating..
thanks for sending me home although u injured ur foot=)
ure so caring recently urh!

thank you=)

working experience1

2008-12-22T17:56:00.004+08:00

Guess wad i did?
counting wires.(hundred plus of them)
stock checking.

@ Hi-Yew!(Harlow,how are you.)lol. >>hankiat's dad's company.
saw welded metals and played with 2 super power magnet lurh

Thanks

2008-12-21T22:42:00.002+08:00

Thats very sweet of you=)
To...
Send me back to sengkang before going back home(queenstown) if ure able to.
Call me back with public phone when ur phone batt suddenly went dead.(i was almost crying over the phone because i was force to kill a cockroach myself.)
Buy me snacks when i say ive gt nth to bite at home.
Buy/bring me breakfast & deliver to my home when i almost starve to death.
& all little things that uve said/done.
Thank you.

side note.
well, thats a cool experience to go the fcbc.
most of the things sounds sensible & meaningful.
bud joining?
err..well.im sorry.

alone

2008-12-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

All the while ive been taking many things for granted.
ever since i moved out & stayed w my bros, i finally realise how fortunate i was.
everytime i came back frm sch mummy & daddy wud fetch me back home frm interchange.
they wud bring along fruits for me to eat in the car & ask me whether im hungry.
when we get home, they will reheat some soup for me to drink & most imptly they wud bring it to my room.
they wud ask me to bathe earlier in case i catch a cold.
mummy will always cooks for me & tidy up my room.she do all the household chores too.
daddy will always drives me anywhr & kill the insects in my room.

now..
i have to do the chores(washing dishes/clothes,mopping the floor,do the laundry, i have to cook/buy food for myself or i'll be waiting to be starved to death).
when i come back home(sg) now, no one is at home.
no one to talk to.

esp today..
came back to sg earlier den wad was planned.
'cos was hoping to accp him to church tmr.
so i set off frm home @ 7.30pm just now...
bud suddenly i felt so sad, leaving them @ home all alone.
later, was taking trains back to sengkang frm jurong east.
all alone, no calls no sms no mp3 no accompaniment during the journey.
sitting side by side with strangers.
now then i realise how hard it is to hold back our tears.
i keep my heads down, letting my long fringe cover my face.
just when i think im nt crying, the tears starts rolling.
its so hard to be independent.

sometimes im just like a puppy, i just need to know im loved, i just need attention.
i just need to get used to it,bud im far frm it.

& THATS IT.

2008-12-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

yea, thats it.
full stop.
stop your craps wont you?
tell ya what...
its not about ignoring, i know things will get better for you if i did.
but im nt gona do that for your sake.
& seriously i had enuff of craps she gave.
whats more?
i dont care its accidentally / unintentionally / coincidentally.
i dont care at all.
& really, all craps.craps.craps.
make sure we wont meet. i'll slap hard.

Misses.

2008-12-12T20:02:00.003+08:00

Headaches.
I've gt plenty of time for reflection today.
bud i spent it on stupid thoughts.

I was thinking...
should i give out so much for a relationship,
should i get so serious with it.
who knows someday i'll be dumped by...

Counting down

2008-12-10T16:08:00.004+08:00

6 more days to go.

Well, i don't expect a drastic change after tt.
'cos thr's stil gor gor thr to keep an eye on me,
mum's gona come for at least 3 days per week i guess?

ooh, today is the 1st wednesday of our term break.
Don't tell me my 1st week of the term break is gona end in 4days.
It's like so damn fast!?!
Tmr gona go to the super crowded workshop for ideas proj.
Next mon gt to meet up for OC proj.
Got to go SP lib for autocad someday in next week i hope?
Need to settle for the maths project grp & start working on it asap!
Heard tt maths common test is coming soon.(jan 09)
3 weeks isn't enuff, stupid.

To be honest. v v honest.
I'm scared.
I have come to realise that I cannot read you anym.

OMG.

2008-12-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

i saw...
i saw it....
A spider & an earthworm in my room.

DAD. !HELP!!!~~~~
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!#$%^&*)__)(*&^%$#@!

Here's for today.

2008-12-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

ok, we plan to do our ideas @ the workshop today.
bud, oh well, the workshop is c-l-o-s-e-d.
'cos the ppl went for meeting or smth.
so yes, it was a wasted trip.

well, i feel like talking to you.
bud i duno what i should say or where should i start.should i let go?

recording

2008-12-08T15:52:00.002+08:00

time check.almost four in the afternoon.
im recording for a purpose.
which i dont intend to reveal?!
well, im bad, i suck. 'cos i just made him told her.
tt's enuf for todays recording.

Very meaningful survey.

2008-12-07T16:50:00.005+08:00

Question was..

1a)Am i better or she's prettier?(optional)
"she."- tao.
"yea,ure better."-weng.

1b)how do she look?(optional)
"she is pretty looking.
mostly but has hign cheek bones like abit too little meat, and her hair is okay not that bad, her ears still can lah not chips or anything but they look proportionally correct to her head, her eyebrows not too dark or not too little so it doesn't scare people...overall if I were to give her face a rating from a scale of 1- 10 I'd give it a 7 or 8 only don't like the cheekbones."-tao.

"i duno how much for her lol.not pleasant to me."-weng.

1c)How do i look?rate.
"ok summary is you are kinda okay looking not pleasing to the eye but okay, not that bad...some odd shaped features like fore head large and less hair but on the whole okay...you make up for it if you ask me with cuteness and a nice smile.
your score with or without smile:
without smile 3,with smile 5." -tao.

"6or 7 for u?"-weng.

"6.5."-aaron.

"8."-bengsuan.

"6-7."-zm.

"6.8."-zihao.

"6-7."-k'th.

"8.5."-kiat.

done.

LOL.

I am a Devil or an Angel?

2008-12-07T14:48:00.005+08:00

I feel like doing smth evil.
Should i?
I'm feeling horrible.
Anyone please, pull me out Completely,
not blind me totally.

this is mine, so does him.

im so pathetic & sad becos u cant get ur facts right,dear gal.

(i really do mean im sad becos she cant gt her facts right, shes not pathetic n sad at all.)

Morning everyone!

2008-12-07T10:26:00.002+08:00

woke up with another smile=D
same reason=)

Im not angry with you, im angry with myself.
get used to it.
as per normal, ignore me.

Feeling fortunate, feeling unfortunate.

2008-12-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

Today i woke up with a smile, quite a big one=D
'cos 1stly i dun nd to wake up at 5.15am.THE HOLIDAE IS HERE.
So next, had gd food.yummy chicken rice=)
after piano lesson,
1 big packet of potato chips & half can of 100 plus.
i think its been a few years since i ate the whole packet of potato chips & had half a can of carbonated drinks.
wow,totally fattening junk food.

i do appreciate life more now.
every lil things ard me.

think about you during summer time.ONLY.=)

2008-12-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

O.O!
i think, moshi moshi is the cutest.
not pooh.
so, moshi moshi, don't sad, u're stil my fav, always my favvv.=)
*moshi moshi = my moshimaro soft toy.

=(
my creation (the smiling face w/ yellow ear, blue foam which i made during workshop & ask hubby to take care)
was in her blog.

Truth?

2008-12-03T22:02:00.006+08:00

Well, somethings can be restored after losing it.
But, not everything can be recovered after giving it up.

I am sure i love you.
But i don't deny i do hate you a little.

It's really painful to be backstabbed by my love ones.
Really, this is gona be the last time im saying this.
&Being faithful isnt enough, you're nt being truthful.

Next, if you feel (& ppl see) im taking more den giving.
Yes, i am.
I can't give as much as what you gave me but i have a bunch of reason which im tired of telling.
If you think love is equal in giving & taking, i'm sorry to say i need to take more.
Just like my usual phrase, nothing's fair.
If you see yourself is giving, then you're giving me.not loving me.
I'd rather take something from others when he/she is willing to give me.

I know i'm at fault too, for not explaining myself.
But, no point.
You always have your reasons, & we'll end up quarrelling more.

Lastly, this blog isn't a weapon.
I'll close it anytime if you feel threatened.

Everytime i thank you i mean it.
Regarding that incident..
Do you still remember i gave you a call but you can't hear what i said because your train is in the tunnel?
I said : "Thank you for today, sorry for not being able to help.i love you."
So, that's how sad our situation is.
Because you failed to hear this sentence.

However, i'm still thankful that i learnt the truth although it really demoralized me totally.
'cos at least i get to know, what i did was a ridiculous.

Now i realise something, i can only explain myself through writing.
'cos i don't have the courage to explain anymore.

home blog permanantly closed.

2008-11-30T14:03:00.013+08:00

happy?

unstable

2008-11-28T19:20:00.003+08:00

-GEMs grp project.
-OC grp project.
-Math grp project.
-Mech 1 online quiz.
-IToE online turning quiz.
-IToE revision paper.
-Mech 1 class test on Mon.
-Eltrn class test next term week 1.
-Autocad test on next fri.
-Math tutorials.
-Math class test in january.
-Screwed IToE pract.
-Pack stuff(for moving hse).

if i've left out anyth just tag to remind me=(.

i realised, smths isnt the same anym.
trying hard to...

priority

2008-11-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

i noe ure trying to help everyone.
bud dont u think ure trying too hard?
look ard.
can u tell wad have u lost?

sorry i cudnt help u.
i cud only help when ure willing me to help out.

im so glad i dun control ppl.
'cos in this case,
at least im moving on.

i swear i hate projects

2008-11-24T23:56:00.003+08:00

i hate projects.
esp when i have to rush them out by tmr.

today was a blessing alrdy, compared to last week.
highlights for today:
-soya ice-cream.
-lao po.
-completed sample paper up to qn3.
-KFC.
-fried rice.
bud frm wad i see, i'll soon have constipation, right?LOL.
anyw, the fried rice was Xtra super spicy.
so instead of constipation, i think i will have diarrhoea.

ok,enuf of my rubbish.
bud stomach start aching=D.

oh, i must have so stressed tt i was mad today.

finally its over.

2008-11-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

well, im kinda fine.
hopefully back to normal when tmr comes.
week 7.

i really do miss the old times.

save.save me.

2008-11-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

this week is seriously ridiculous.
from monday til tmr.
i've nt been myself, not for a single day in this week.
& tmr, im doing stuff tt i've nvr ever thought of trying.
i only hope for one thing,nvr ever messup tmr's concert.

tell me who am i, tell me what i'm doing?
i'm really confused.

so thank you ppl,
for hearing me out,
for trusting me,
for taking care of me,
for protecting me,
for entertaining me,
for provoking me.

this few weeks,
we're both occupied by our own stuffs.
we're expected to handle our stress individually.
we're sad recently for diff reasons.
we're always trying to be there for each other.
i really appreciate it. & im really sorry for the times im nt being able to be with u/help u.

i really hope tt everyth will be fine.
you&me.

call me harmony,the kid.lol

2008-11-21T20:19:00.002+08:00

You are fun and unique.

Your parents should have named you...

Harmony

What should your parents have named you?

Your life is rated G. You grew up watching Disney movies and nothing has really changed since then. You are innocent and kind hearted. For you, there is no evil in life and no problem too big that a bowl of iced cream doesn't solve.

'What is your Life Rated?'

at QuizGalaxy.com

at QuizGalaxy.com

	How will you be proposed to?	At your favorite restaurant
	What will you say?	No.

'How will you be Proposed to?' at QuizGalaxy.com


	Minimal: You would most likely not get caught, but if you did, it would be due to technological developments arising after the case had gone cold.


from QuizGalaxy.com

How long until you get married?
	You will get married ... 6 to 10 years from now

'How long until you get married?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Are you a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
	You have a couple love troubles but not many. You understand the needs and the wants out of a relationship. Just work a little bit harder in showing love, respect, honour, and commitment.

'Are you a good boyfriend/girlfriend?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Are you smarter than a monkey?
	YES! You scored 100%, which means that you're 62% smarter than a monkey!

'Are you smarter than a monkey?' at QuizGalaxy.com

All-Around Smart

You are all-around smart. Essentially, that means that you are a good combination of your own knowledge and experience, along with having learned through instruction - and you are equally as good with theoretical things as you are with real-world, applied things. You have a well-rounded brain.

0% applied intelligence
20% learned intelligence

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

You should have grown up during the fifties

You like simpler times when you could go to the malt shop with your sweetie and park down on lover’s lane. You also like change and imagining your bright future.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

sorry deer.

2008-11-20T20:24:00.002+08:00

sorry,
really very sorry.
i promise i'll keep my cool if i meet this kind of situations again.
promised.
i would be coward & run away immediately after spamming vulgarities.
okok,ok.nono.i will run straight away.ok?
im sorry, to get you hurt.im sorry.

i'm sorry cos i was really upset these few days.
i swear this is the first time im so DESPERATE for a holiday.

im still enduring.
'cos i haven figure out what to say.
save me.

cool web.

2008-11-19T22:31:00.003+08:00

found @ sl blog.
took my quiz & here's the result.

Romance

Romance is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You need romance in your life. You love the extra dimension that romance brings to a relationship and you tend to fall in love very quickly.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Your hidden talent is writing

Your hidden talent is writing. You have a unique way of viewing the world and are able to express your thoughts eloquently on the page. Some people might think that you are weird, but you are just the next Pulitzer prize winner.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Your Life, Predicted:
	You will never get married. You will have 2 children. You will live for another 40-50 years.
'The Life Predictor Quiz' at QuizGalaxy.com

You are in Love!
You love the person that you are with and it will last a long time.
'Are you in Love?' at QuizGalaxy.com

	You are 21% evil.
'Just how EVIL are you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

- October 2 -
You are very independent and don't care what others think of you. You are genuine and romantic. You love the outdoors, travel and the arts.
Positive Traits: empathetic, compassionate, intuitive, loving, understanding
Negative Traits: insecurity, nervous, self-conscious, needy, moody
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

wow.

You are 40% Obsessive.
You are a little bit obsessive. You might go a little wacky when your fave band comes to town but otherwise you are cool, calm and collected.

'How Obsessive Are You?' at QuizGalaxy.com

You are 66% Emo

You are pretty Emo. You like the music, styles and way of life but it doesn’t really control your life. There is more to you than just another cute Emo face.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

You date like you are 14 years old.

You like to be friends first, and chill with your partners. You may not be very experienced in dating, which your prospective lovers catch onto quickly - but they still find it adorable.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

YOUR DATING REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Flirting	A
Physical	B
Emotional	B
Your Average Dating Grade: B
'What is your Dating Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

gdnites.

=(

2008-11-19T21:50:00.003+08:00

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i wonder will everyth go back to the same after 7 days?

thr's many things i dun get it,bud i try to understand.
what can i do?
i try nt to disturb/interrupt.
i try to work my way out for these few days.
i try to keep myself occupied.
nt tt im nt willing to bring u along for this sunday,
bud u said u've things on, bud u will try to make it.
however, i think its alright.
dun nd to run in & out.
i dun nd u tt badly, i am fine to go thr, i've gt daddy & mummy wif me.alright?

if you nd time to do ur stuff,
just go ahead.
dun nd to rush for me.
nt tt i dun wana spend time wif you,bud
i really want to give u more space for this few days.
i really dun wish to waste ur time.it's nt worth it.

i promise i'll be right back after you complete ur stuff.
definately if u nd me during this few days,i'll be thr too.
other den tt,i'll keep myself out.

just another ordinary day.

2008-11-19T18:08:00.003+08:00

we had our ideas presentation today.
as usual, i've got nth to say.

after ideas, grp went to koufu & eat.
suddenly duno who say "wana pon class anot?"
lol, & tt's it, all pon.

so went lab w/ lao po to submit gems test.
den went lib for aircon.
'cos i didnt eat anyth @ koufu,
so went to fc 1 for beef & onion bowl.=DDDDDDD
(finally no nd eat koufu!)
was facing the stall when im eating, so took this opportunity to look at ppl & comment.
(seldom gt this chance alrdy)

den i went back home straight.
has been slpin late this few days, & we have tests/tuts tmr.
esp maths tut, haven been following much compared to starting of the sem.

=(.went home straight.
didnt have the mood to study in sch.
1)'cos damn tired.
2)lao po needa go back ntss.

alright,so reach hm ard 2,
immediately K.O on my bed.
woke up ard 5.30 by mummy.

alright.after dinner,now..
i need to..
1)do maths tuts.
2)revise electronic lab test stuffs.
alone.

i know.

2008-11-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

There's more to come.
bud im glad i figured out.

i really feel like being suffocated.
i noe i look damn fedup today,for the whole day.
thrs nth i can do abt it.
if im nt happy,i dont put up a smile just to entertain ppl.

i have to persuade myself,
to make myself feel better.

emotional post.cos im fking tired.

2008-11-18T01:32:00.004+08:00

don't nd to highlight,i gt nth to post.

scratch

2008-11-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

im scratching my neck,my stomache,my shoulder,
like..a monkey.

feel so full cos i haven shit.
feel abit hungry becos i ate bun,dinner & brunch & lil tibits today.
i'll try to shit them out by tonight.promised.

headache.

freaking annoyed by projects/tests etcs.
thrs so many incomplete stuffs,
all hanging in mid.

lao po haven come back=(

wow!today was HELL.

2008-11-17T18:13:00.002+08:00

woke up & set off to sch.
send a msg "im leaving frm custom to sch" to lao po.LOL(@ ard 9 am)
den he replied "?you late?lol,me too"
???late?its only 9am!
"eh?really?i tot it was 9am, so i ran frm newtown to SP!"-_-!

munched super rings & choco during ItoE.
den went off for brunch.
& lao po left sch,back to his camp.

wayne:"u guys gg for mech?im gg home after OC"
aaron:"i gt smth on later"
guigui:"im gg home"
---------------------------------------------------
wilson absent.
lao po MIA.

O.O.wad am i gg to do?

OC lesson....
aaron,guigui,wayne sit front row.
"aaron,sit beside me lurh"
aaron:"dun wan"=(

haikel appear..
"sit here lurh"
haikel:"why?!"
":'( no one wans to sit with me."
"LOL"

so th 1st thing i do to my new fren,
ransack his bag.clothes & notes,nth else.
he ransack my pencil box & say it was full with rubbish?!?
ok,true enuf.

den started some convo with haikel & wayne...
this pretty boy complain tt the air con is too strong,
so i came to rescue him,lending lao po jacket to him n took his jacket & wear it.
A sleeveless jacket?!O.O.wads the use?URH?!

OMG,OC ended.everyone flee...
no choice,confiscated haikel pencil box.
so he bo bian,have to stay wif us til 3pm.
in the end wayne wait til 3 before gg home.

mech..
sitting alone for 1.30 hrs.
nas n weng kindly ask me to shift sit to their side..
bud lazy..no diff right?

went home straight after sch.
YEAH,REACH HM B4 6PM!MIRACLE!

have dinner & red bean bun.
now stil eating bun.
thr is like..3/4 of it left,on my study table!
& im stil nibbling it.
no wonder i gt stomachache so often,& ants on my bed(table is just beside bed,im sitting on bed,lappie on table).

lao po lao po!
NEH,i like to call lao po.

drank alcohol ytd,& damn it.
i didnt noe im allergic to it.
rashes frm shoulder to thigh.
headache.

mech class test is in 2 weeks time.idea project is due by this wed?!eltrn lab test this thurs.concert this sun.music appreciation test due by wed & many things more ahead.

lao po lao po lao po.
u don't K.O.
u cannot K.O.
'cos i cannot.
so u cannot.
this is an order.

damn it.itchy.

the 1st time

2008-11-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

its the 1st time i heard myself crying so loud in my dreams.
i could only rmb some parts.
character:wayne,weng,han,me.(n our class ppl,i didnt see,bud i knew)
scene:some room,like..lecture rooms
sitting position:i only noe weng sit behind me & han sit beside me.
main character:chan dai weng.

story:
everyone was in class & after one module we have our breaks.
so me n han decide to go out n buy some stuffs.
i rmb turning back n ask weng wad he wans.
he was laughing like OMGZX%^&,becos of some jokes he heard.
den he replied me" nah,dun wan be light bulb,*twing twing*"

den me n han went out.

when we came back..i duno who told me weng was cut in halves?!?!no exactly half,bud was like 3/4.
den i open the door,n saw him(the 3/4 part) crying to himself(the other 1/4 part).
at tt point i laughed n walk out of the room bud i saw wayne was sobbing,
so i went back in n realise thr was alot of blood ard n weng's ears/hands was bloody.
suddenly heard thr is a..a..weapon..like duno wad spears fall n cut him.
& suddenly he walk near me n cry/talk/say he's gona die or smth n holds the 1/4 of himself.
i ran to the other corner of the room n squad dwn n cry.

finally daddy came n woke me up.
phew.

this is the only few dreams tt i could rmb clearly after so many hrs...
bloody scary.
perhaps recently i've been watching some gore/horror shows & an incomplete convo with weng last night becos i pluck out my lappie battery when i thought my ac power was on(which is not).
& im lazy to start lappie again,so i went to slp instead.

damn it,i can stil rmb clearly..

status.away.

2008-11-14T21:50:00.002+08:00

urh ahem.
feeling confused.
recently tao brought me back to those memories.
its aldy been nearly 6 months.
bud,really.i've learnt alot.

maintaining a relationship isnt as easy as i intially thought.
& isnt as smooth as i planned.
although i lose my temper & shout at him,
bud i wud grab his arms later on & treat him better.

i have to learnt when to hold him tight,when to let him free.
we're still young,still learning & growing.
will it last?will it fade.
in the past,i wud say time wud tell.
bud nw,i have to say,we have to keep our relationship well.
bud i've no faith in it.

when i have alot of theories to tell,
bud i don't have the confidence,

im just dreaming.

todays lesson

2008-11-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

the electronic lesson was..terrible.
i really don't uds a single stuff.
&..it was freaking boring tt i have to keep changing my sitting position to keep myself awake.
ok..although in the end i did fall slp..

well,recently.
got pretty much things on my mind.
just some crappy stuffs which i would like to take them off.

somehow,i feel v uncomfortable recently.
i don't know why/what/how.
guess i really have to turn myself in to the lost & found centre.

down down.

2008-11-09T20:04:00.003+08:00

honestly speaking.
haven been happy since the day after i meetup with ruksuek.
nothing seems interesting/exciting.
or u can say,nothng interest me anym.
yea,nothing at all.

paying full attention in tutorials/lectures/practicals.
all i get is frustrations.
ok,i mean,mostly frustrations.

hanging out with wayne wayne's group.
as usual,lame but comfortable.

cloning with him.
sometimes sweet,sometimes tiring,sometimes frustrated.
this is the 1st time i've gotta learn hw to live with another person.
i used to have control of everyth.
now,i have to consider many things b4 i do.
being with you doesnt mean i have to lose myself.
so,i am nt being ridiculous,it's just tt for smths,we dont clique.

staying at home.
i love it.
but thr will be changes to it soon.
gona move in to sengkang in mid Dec.
although my home wud be diff, bud my attitude is still the same.
i love my home,n i can coop up in the hse up for weeks.

travelling to n fro.
although moving hse soon,i have to return back to m'sia every weekend for piano lessons.

considering RSAF.
after consulting friends,bros,parents,rsaf.
i think i will sign jpsds,as senior tech.
cos recently just got a letter frm authorities,asking me to apply for PR.
so i cud only consider rsaf IF i can gt the PR.
furthermore, getting PR doesnt meant rsaf want me.
so,short term goal..
to get PR, to apply for jpsds, den hopefully they approve..
tt will definately make my life v different.

schooling everyday.
its pretty boring.

im bored.im bored.im bored.im bored.i said im bored.

i do feel smth has changed.some i can tell,but some i could not.
but i am stil adapting to it.
however,if thr's a day i really couldnt stand it any longer,
i ~~might~~will let go everyth & start anew.

i have changed,
im now even more pessimistic,
not-as-violent as before.(i really mean it)
i realised i've closed up myself.
trap myself & never had the intention to set myself free.

i have nt been crying for ages.
'cos im happy?nope.
it feels so bad tt im really down,bud im so sick of crying.

different

2008-11-08T18:12:00.004+08:00

We're kinda different from others.isnt it?
we're meeting almost everyday,close to 12 hrs per day.
we study tgt,we eat tgt,we lame tgt,we pinch each other,we do hmwk tgt,we draw ideas tgt,we mad at each other,we care for each other,etc.
originally we're just cloning,now,we became each others clone.
u uds my badly-phrase english,i uds ur pathetically-broken chinese.
u came to fetch me,i went to pick u up.
when im angry,ure frustrated.
when im sad,ure worried.
u cook for me,i invite u for dinner.
i help u carry ur file,u help me carry my bag.
when i scream when im frighten,u yelled.
when im poor,ure poor too.HAHA.

now,u have step into my life.
and for sure,i wont let you ~~off~~go so easily.LOL
i guess we've been tgt for ard..6 mnths?
those confusion,n uncertain has left.
everyth is so secure & stable now.
this is what i wanted,this is what i've been wishing for.
i really hope nth bad pops out sooner or later,i just had this bad feeling.
probably im too used to live in the past.

sometimes i feel im so happy to stick beside u so much,
sometimes i just want more freedom.

we're disgustin,we're kiddy,we're stupid,we're shameless.
"its WE,not only me"

i am not embarass to say i love you,infront of anyone.
some says no love is everlasting.
i agree.
bud im fine with u now n i dont care.
no matter is 1 yr 3 yrs 5 yrs.
im willing to try n make things work.

i need a pair of heels.
i need a dress.
i need smone to help me makeup.
i am gona host a piano concert for my music centre.O.O.
wana come?

[REC]

2008-11-07T20:18:00.003+08:00

the movie REC is so damn frightening.
trust me,its so freaking frightening until he grab me n yell.
its not scary but frightening.
and the yell of the infected victim was deafening.
but overall is quite a gd movie.
Do watch it if u have a strong heart.

running ard.

2008-11-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

have been running ard sg this few days for diff purpose.
its really tiring..

autocad is a very annoying module,
"you can draw,bud u must draw faster."
comeon,
u shud teach,bud u must teach slower lurh!
oops,tt reminds me tt i haven finish the qns YET.

OOHH!
i rmb!!!
OC!shat,haven even contact haikel.
gosh,have to finish it by today!

sadded,its sunday again.
3rd week is gona start SOON.
i said i'll study bud..err..seems like i gt no stamina at all.

this sem is plain tiring.

now:waiting for blueberry cheese tarts&i miss you!

rsaf?

2008-11-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

hmm,went for the rsaf talk today..
saw..aaron w/ his frens..wayne..n some 01s.

hmm..
happy birthday gor.

thank you.

bye.im super tired.

recent

2008-10-29T20:54:00.004+08:00

though i learn things slower den others,bud at least i gt the concept.

just gimmi lil time & i cud finish my work.

really,i aint as stupid as i look.

time to prove tt i aint a burden/disturbance.

side notes:i hate to be accused & forced.

the very last time im gona say

2008-10-27T18:00:00.004+08:00

i don't only request ppl to mind their own business,
i,myself also don't mind other ppls business as well.

please,thr is many stuff tt is nt my fault.stop putting blames on me.
& i hate this word"respect".
TELL ME.
AM I SUPPOSE TO RESPECT PPL WHEN PPL R ACCUSING ME?

the class thingy is my fault,
he come or dont come over is my fault.
going home late vs reaching hm late is my prob.
passing gor msg to dad,dad not happy den i kena.
for everyth i have to ans twice.
a gd ans to each side.
i hate to live for others.i swear.

im always at wrong.
yes,i am.very true.
becos i am always the middle man.
how sad is tt.
really,i really wana say I HATE TO BE MIDDLE MAN.

really this is the last very last time im gona say,
stop using me as a middle person,everyone.
i have my own life,stop using my life as a bridge frm urs to others.

im so fsick n tired to be place in the middle for others to use.

why can't everyone just be more responsible for ur ownself?
i ain't suppose to be responsible for everyones mistake.
im really at my limit.

i am sorry

2008-10-27T00:41:00.004+08:00

i am so sorry.
please leave me alone for awhile.
felt disrespected?
yea.tts hw rude i am.

i have my way of understanding & you have ur way of explaining.
we cant communicate.
clear?
tts totally wads gg on recently.

really,just leave me alone for awhile.just awhile.
i really dun wana offend anyone,
just stay away frm me for ur own gd.

i am really tired,exhausted.
i really appreciate everyth u've done for me.

gimmi sometime.
i really nd to open up more.i noe.
bud do u noe hw hard is tt for me?
words r always easy.

dont tell me to do this n tt,
it aint easy for me,its nt tt im trying to limit myself.
i've gt no choice,i didnt want it bud i did it.
dont make it sound so easy.

please leave me alone.
im so fucked up now.
get lost .everyone.

hi

2008-10-26T14:19:00.000+08:00

may i noe is thr anyone who passby this blog?

i just freak myself out.

50th

2008-10-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

smth wasnt quite right.

what can i say

2008-10-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

i noe.i noe.i noe.
i've been bad for these few weeks.
i just cant keep my cool.for some reasons, i noe im in deep shit right now.
too many things are processing in my mind
worst stil, none of them is gd stuff.
i just dont get it.abt everyth.
everyth is just too complicated for me to explain.
so i had no choice but to remain silent.

i am so sorry tt i keep losing my temper.
i didnt meant it.
nth happened.
bud im sadded.
perhaps its becos of my stupid thoughts again.
when you ask my why,
i cant even explain.tts when i fedup n walk away.

when i could unfold every single thoughts/feelings in my mind,
tts when i'll be back.

i have to stop worrying for everyth.
am really,tired.
so lost.
hope is smth sweet & bitter.

back.

2008-10-22T21:21:00.002+08:00

ppl are getting more & more annoying.

anyw,sch stuff really...omg..
have been paying attention in class from the start of this sem.
kinda noe wads going on.
BUT,i realise im nt the only one,
almost everyone had been studying too.

btw,i want to be a maintainance engineer rather den design engineer.
kinda abit no point if im lucky to get into ntu anyw.
alright.i just have to do my best for now.
bud..tired.
shat,tmr stil nd to get smth frm gor n deliver back home to mummy.
bud..wah..tmr thurs..
& guess wad..i haven been touching autocad.
hmm,i guess i'll do it tmr before gg to meet gor or wad.

i miss you.

downloading

2008-10-19T16:22:00.003+08:00

have been downloading the autocad software frm ytd til duno when for the 4th time.
1st time: stuck at 72%.
2nd time: power off in mid dl.
3rd time: internet off in mid dl.
4th: dlding right now. - 3%...

am so tired.
have nt been havin quality sleep for ages.
have nt been doing much tutorials.
have nt been happy since...cant rmb.
have nt been learning much.
have nt been...been myself recently.
urgh.i have to set myself into busy mode.
i am so free but lazy.i nd a study partner.

tell ya wad.im off to tidy up my room NOW.

"you have a new message"

2008-10-18T20:57:00.004+08:00

click open >

18/10/08
08:42pm
Please prepare 3 dollar for your electronics textbook next monday if not the lecturer f you.
Oh i don't have everyono's number so spread this around.
From cls rep,
Sin lih.
---End---

LOL.

ooh,met mr samuel @ citysquare few days ago.
w/ a chinese gal.lol.
kinda look more chubby den last time..lesser hair too..
bud stil handsome &charming.haha.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!

2008-10-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday Ng Han Kiat!
sorry urh, cant spend ur bdae with you fer da whole dae=(
bud bud hope u like the pressie?
tao one was great right?i forgt to sign the cup..shit..i shud have done tt long ago.
anyw why u cried?i didnt rape you,y u so sad?=D
okok...
rmb to update me wad happen after u reach josh hse.
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wow,today..computer aid drafting..
i cant rmb wad she teach cos she basically fly thru the whole lesson.
shooo~
den next unit..
den next tutorial..
i haven absorb a single thing n she MOVED ON ALRDY.
she teach damn fast until i cudnt bear to blink my eyes.
just 3 blinks= shoo~next topic.
btw,her lesson was frm EIGHT to TWELVE.4FULL HR.
p.s...her make up is as thick as the wall..
shes helpful...
shes...better den osk.

went for Gems today.music app.
wayne keep asking "wads ur GERMS."LOL
anyw, music app was my cup of tea in brief=)
hope to get dist?i try=)

am tired.
i don't care abt many things anymore.
i wish for 1 thing now,needing it badly..
knowledge/wisdom.
i am bloody stupid.plus i really cant focus...
oh well.
2 word for me,buck up.

hi people.

2008-10-16T20:53:00.004+08:00

finally friday is coming,my turn for the GEMs.
music appreciation=D

actually,so far i haven regret choosing aeronautical engineering.
i wudnt survive in business/accoutancy.
although engineering doesnt really sound as gd as business course to sm ppl,
bud tell ya,
engineering is hot,aeronautical engineering rocks.
engineering practical is FUN,engineering tutorial is brain cell-consuming.lol

im glad i didnt go for jc.
come on..l1b5 of 16 doesnt get me into any gd jcs.
bud a l1r4 of 10 cud let me pick my fav course.
if i cud enter university after diploma,i cud go ntu & start frm yr 2 of the course.
dip+degree=5 yrs;
a- lvl +degree =5 yrs.
why not choose the fun route.=D

schooling

2008-10-14T20:45:00.002+08:00

2nd day into sem2.
seems like the rest of the modules is alright.
except for tt Oral Comm.

oh yah..
today started with Intro to Engineering(ITOE) practical..
woa..cool..felt so gd to step into workshops again & see the machines..
was assign with our own mahine & start cutting plus drilling the workpiece.
it took me quite a long while to familiarize since its like..1 yr plus since i finished my o lvl DnT.

so itoe is my fav module..
no lecture,no exam.=D

alright=)
hope my GPA wud improve for this sem.
cya.

finally.

2008-10-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

finally,the explorer work now.
the explorer was dead for the whole ytd.
i got the internet,
i got the msn,
i cant use internet explorer.
sucky.

alright sch started today.
smhow i like sch days.
its better den being a rotting potato at home.
i am so happy today.

last

2008-10-12T00:37:00.003+08:00

the very last day of this vacation.
i realise i feel insecure in everyth.
nth, anyone can be certain abt.
what i nd is just love, safe, simple & peace.
bud yet,i cudnt persuade myself to believe its possible to have anyone of them.
assurance?will it work on me?
words are just alphabets.i need to see & feel to be assured.
i am always lost.
'cos i don't believe.

ok,i see myself nt trusting anyone including myself.
bullshit.
i just hate to be like this.

soon=)

2008-10-11T20:44:00.003+08:00

haiz=)
gotta get back to sch real soon.
this semester timetable is so damn screwed up lurh.
lets just hope tt the modules aint tt sucky as last sem.

alright,next.
the gems thingy,took up Music Appreciation for this sem.
yea,tt's my 1st choice,manage to kop it before its gone.
bud..wah..took up another 2 hrs per week.

well,its been half a yr since sch started.
its really fast urh?
Fc 5(KFC) had just finished its renovation,finally thr's aircons,tiles,new windows & more seats..etc.
anyw,sp has this "learn a sport" thingy, its like Gems,bud it only gives 4 cca points after completing the thingy.

alright,enuf of my craps.
see you guys soon.

what a day

2008-10-10T23:48:00.002+08:00

dont ask me what i did today.
i totally gt no memory of what happened today.
although im physically on earth,bud my mind is smwhr in the space.
i've gt no expression on my face today.
is this called a bored day or a peaceful day?

im so bored.

2008-10-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

What is your Sign of Karma?
Aquarius
You desperately want to fit in to a group and belong. Unfortunately, you are fated to always set yourself apart and be mistrustful. Social groups do not receive you warmly because of your superior stance. Your karmic path is to feel pulled between a need to belong and for freedom of original thought. The first step towards evolving for you may be as simple as admitting that you feel like an outsider always looking in -- and that deep down you are lonely and unhappy. This may be hard for you to do because you have likely developed an elaborate facade based on the idea that 'being different is cool' and that you are somehow better than everyone else. Or you may be so frustrated trying to function in groups that you have become a follower -- seemingly content to stand back stage. Realize that someone that sees things in a different way can be a valuable contributor to a group -- breaking up the group think and making sure everyone's freedoms are respected.

Your Rebellion Sign
Capricorn
Uranus doesn't want to spend much time in Capricorn, but it does the best it can with its seven-year span. Capricorn likes the traditional way of doing things but, with the influence of Uranus, acknowledges that perhaps modernization isn't all that bad. Your generation might have, early on, some problems associated with authority. The tension that you feel may be a result of Uranus struggling for more influence. You'll make changes to the world around you during your life, but they will lean more toward the useful and practical than the extravagant and monumental. You might feel insecure about your future, so you may find yourself making certain changes for the sole purpose of ensuring that your life will always be comfortable and secure. You understand, though, that any changes you make now will influence your whole life.

spiritual sign
Capricorn
You are part of a 14 year group of people who are conservative and traditional in spiritual aspirations and religious outlook. Your age group returns to some traditional basics in religion, and also traditional styles in music and art. Classical music and literature have a revival with your age group, and a great deal of inspiration is gained from the masters of arts, music, literature, and philosophy throughout history. Your age group is contemplative and reflective about religious matters and you take an objective and logical approach to religious issues. Many of you are cynics and critics of spiritual and metaphysical ideas.
Other age groups criticize your group for not having enough heart and compassion. Sometimes this is true and is evidenced by some unusually crafty and manipulative fraud and deception that occurs in the higher ranks of governments and large businesses.

Your Power Sign
Scorpio
When Pluto enters its ruling Sign of Scorpio, the blanket of mystery may be pulled back as previously hidden things begin to resurface. Scorpio is the Sign of Sex, so those born with Pluto in Scorpio will be surrounded for much of their lives by a focus on sex and sexuality. Fatalities as a direct result of sexually transmitted diseases skyrocketed during this time, something that the children of this generation are faced with every day. For the first time in history, young people are more concerned about dying as a result of sexual escapades than they are about accidental pregnancy. There is a positive side to the revelations of this generation, however. Activism for human rights reclaimed the ears of the world, and more and more digressions from the 'societal norm' gained acceptance in today's society.

What is your Rising Sign?
Sagittarius
If your Rising Sign is in Sagittarius, happy is how people see you. Doesn't matter if you're in a foul mood, you look for all the world to be the consummate optimist, the open, friendly adventurer typified by Sagittarius. On the other hand, Sagittarians are often restless and contentious; they bore easily and sometimes pick fights for the fun of it. You give an impression of such indifference that others may say some crazy, unexpected or even hurtful things to you, expecting their comments to roll right off your back! You can't help it -- you're just exuding that characteristic Archer cool.

Your Sun Sign
LibraSeptember 23 - October 22
Libra is the seventh Sign of the Zodiac, and it is at this point in the Zodiac that we start to see a shift. While the first six Signs of the Zodiac focus on the individual, the last six focus on the individual's contact with others and with the world. Librans are first and foremost focused on others and how they relate to them. We can call this the Sign of partnership with a capital 'P' because these folks do not want to be alone! For a Libran, everything is better if it's done as a pair. Librans are good when paired up, too, since they epitomize balance, harmony and a sense of fair play. While they are true team players at work, their favorite partnership is at home: marriage. Librans feel most complete when they are coupled up with their lover, forever.
It's the Scales which symbolize Libra, and just like that balancing mechanism wants to stay even, Librans want to be on an even keel. Think of the Scales of Justice and how they work at striking the right balance. Likewise, Librans are objective, just and want to do what's best for everyone. It's possible, though, that this penchant for fairness is for a different reason: Librans abhor conflict. The Scales study every possible angle in the hopes of achieving peace and harmony, so much so that others may see them as fickle and indecisive. If that's what it takes to avoid a confrontation, that's fine with the Scales. The Libra-born are keen strategists, organizing groups with poise and getting the job done (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Further, you can expect the Scales to be companionable, sociable folks.

communication sign
Libra
One of your greatest assets is your ability to see both sides of an issue, and to negotiate and bring about compromise and reconciliation. Tactful, reasonable, and with considerable social finesse, you work well with people in business as well as in personal relationships. You are objective and somewhat detached from emotional bias, and make an excellent consultant, mediator, or public relations person. You insist upon fairness and seek to bring harmony or at least peaceful coexistence between people, and your diplomacy is a benefit in any business or social situation. You also have fine aesthetic sensitivities and could work in an artistic or cultural environment.

love sign
Leo
Venus in Leo is a sure sign of someone who is larger than life, at least where love is concerned. Showy, gregarious, loyal and extravagant only begin to describe this fun-seeking individual. These folks love to be loved and are hard to miss in any social situation, having a knack as they do for lighting up a room. The one thing these souls crave is someone who can appreciate what they're all about and love them for it. In return, plenty of love will be given back! A tendency to put themselves out there" can put those with this placement in a precarious position: if a relationship doesn't work out, will their ego be shattered? Perhaps, but only until the next big event and an opportunity to shine yet again! As long as the vibes are good, these happy folks make for a partner whose lust for life is unmatched. Dancing the night away? Yes, it's on the dance card, along with romantic weekends, heartfelt sentiments and tender touches. A match with someone touched by Venus in Leo is likely to be filled with expression and acceptance and will no doubt be an endless party. Get those dancin' shoes ready!

passion sign
Libra
Mars in Libra bestows upon you an ability to express any anger or aggressive tendencies with tact, charm, and diplomacy. You probably do not enjoy conflict and may even go out of your way to avoid it. Your flexibility and balanced outlook make you an easy going, cooperative partner. You desire connections with others, and much energy is directed towards relationships and friendships. You are gracious and entertaining, and attract many, due to your curiosity and willingness to try anything new. You are sensual and affectionate with those you feel close to, and are gratified by lots of physical contact. You are extremely romantic. Setting may be very important to you, you may feel better in a room full of flutes and flowers. You offer a peaceful loving nature to your relationships and will be happiest with those who are demonstrative and expressive with words.

What is your Lucky Sign?
Virgo
You can find luck through work and simplicity. You belong somewhere that values your detail-oriented nature and supports your appreciation for the 'basics' of life -- honesty, hard work and practicality. Through your solid values, you can create exciting progress. Taking on more than you can handle can sabotage your luck, however. Your need to stay within perfectionist boundaries can also be limiting.

moon sign
Cancer
You respond very much to the emotional tone and atmosphere around you, and can be dominated by your fluctuating and unpredictable moods. You often appear irrational to others because you cannot always explain the reason or source of your feelings. Anyone who lives with you must accept your ups and downs and appreciate your need for times of withdrawal.
You are also very sympathetic and understand the unspoken feelings and needs of others. You take slights and rebuffs very personally and though you may forgive a transgression by a friend or loved one, you never forget it.

adorable

2008-10-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

i am happy.

2008-10-09T21:06:00.004+08:00

random stuffs to say:
-3 days before my bdae,i went snokelling with my handphone with me,now its dead.
its like every 3 months i'll have to change one phone,this the 3rd phone tt i either drop it or spoil it.oh well.i guess i needa wait til i have the time to earn for my new phone myself.its okie.
(sorry bro)

-well,my mp3 didnt survive long either.a day before my bdae,it was washed by the washing machine.
bud thanks to you=)brought me another,thank you.
bud,urgh..stress.i wonder hw long this mp3 can survive under me.

im thankful im stil alive n kicking right nw.

bud today was awesome.
met up with suek to revise her o lvl stuff with her.(initial plan)
bud end up eating & watching movies most of the time.

today was exactly the kind of day i wished for.
hey~come SP after o lar=)
oh well,u promise u Might drop by SP to study.rmb to sms me=)

although my electronic stuffs spoil,bud today really makeup for everyth.

thank you suek for today.
thank you for today.

so sick

2008-10-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

im gg crazy soon.
once sch starts, i will turn mad.
dont be surprise to see me not in myself in anyday.
dont be surprise tt i'll shout at anyone's face nxt time.
& yea,sorry in advance.

i just dun get it.
i said im alone,bud i request for freedom.
the best thing i've done in this vacation is to lock myself in my room.
trust me,i feel so safe.

i suck.
agree?shh.jus dun let me hear it.

Prawning and Oil Palming

2008-10-08T00:45:00.010+08:00

eggies prawn

eeee!!yucks! hate creatures with many legs!

oil palm fruitsyum yum!=D

7 years old rooster

the plant that can make you go mute =X

Fun but tiring!

and can easily get lost too.lol.

pause.

2008-10-05T14:38:00.000+08:00

have a break,
have a han kiat.

wah lao.
super lame.

tioman trip

2008-10-02T22:33:00.015+08:00

before taking ferry,@ mersing jetty.

a cat with a dog's soul.

random pic.

reaching soon.

ferry cabin.

camwhoring.

chalet view.

beach.

WOWOW.MUSCLES.EH.its mine.

sea urchin.dad brought it up.we swear we put it back before it died.lol.

these too,we did return.

btw,dad took it up,nt us.=X

AGAIN!MINE MINE.SHOO.

baby shark.

day 2
fishes

out to sea.

arrive at our 1st destination.snorkelling(thrs lots of beautiful corals here)

"Do i nd to get dwn?i duno hw to swim!"

no choice.

...

marine park.(lots of fishes.dasmn pretty)

abit drunk@_@

it was really fun!lol.
the snorkelling was really great,fishes n corals.
even saw this huge huge huge grouper n "fish wall"
although gt cut by the corals n sunburned,its worth it=)

im back

2008-10-01T19:43:00.000+08:00

shall post the photos tmr.

don't feel well.

2008-09-27T13:15:00.004+08:00

i feel sucky recently.
smtimes i really wana make some ppl disappear.bud ure way too much.SHIT YOU. am fking nt gg to bear it anym,no wonder tt person left you.clever move.
or at least,disappear out of my sight. Fking proud+no brains+unreasonable sucker.
i don't mind ppl who gave me comments.bud pls use ur pig's head & think y i did tt.oops.don't bother,ure STUPID.
bud definately not those who force me to follow & judge me when i dont.

sometimes.no,everytime,YOU have to mind ur own business.i hate you.
just sometimes i wana slap you.u're getting fker& fker.suckier& suckier.
end of the post i just wana be clear,weng,this isnt refering to you nor han.not tao too.

BOO!

2008-09-26T23:38:00.006+08:00

DON'T view them alone.
NOT suitable for small kids & big babies...

yea,i dont know wad im doing.I AM going crazy.suppose to have a vid.budbud..cant put,unless gt permission frm him urh,

paranoid

2008-09-25T20:55:00.009+08:00

well.
i do admit im quite a paranoid person.
'cos thrs nth worth to trust.
i do hate it.
sorry if i've offended anyone in the past & future.

basically,this post is crap.
i dont noe wad im doing.

i just dont feel comfortable with everyth recently.
perhaps this trip to tioman can cure me.
i hope.

now

2008-09-25T03:32:00.001+08:00

i feel empty & cold.
stop asking why.

questions

2008-09-25T01:59:00.002+08:00

what/who are you to me?
do i love you as a fren or a man?
ive gt no idea.

cos u dont noe wad ure doing.
trust me,this post wud be the prove for future.

its an ans to whether ure assuming things or nt.
& proves ure deciding for everyone.
n i'll be history.
another history.