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I'll be fine.

If you truly understand me.I need your attention, your affection, your acknowledgement.Every single time when i try to bring us back to where we were, you rejected me.The word CAN'T really crushed me. Moreover you we'rent there for me when i panicked and broke down. All i did for you was gone when im honest with you. You care more about him than me. I'm really depressed, what have i done wrong to deserve a scolding from you. Perhaps the grass is always greener on the other side, you can't see what i see. You know what you did, maybe not, but i am going down. I am stubborn, my attitude sucked, i'm childish, my fault, my flaws are popping out real fast in such a short time. Thank you for being honest with me, but the truth always hurts. No matter what, you are the one who gave me everything, and took it all away when you left. I am no longer what i used to be, sometimes i wonder why i could'nt control it.

Sometimes i feel i have lost you, but now i know, i lost the both of us.
we're losing this fight, i am drowning.
I surrender.

guys,

Im switching to lj.
maybe switching back, maybe not.

Wait, Wait.

this post shall not be publish.

Pika.

thanks tao.

M.F.

It just spoils the day.
2 of the same kind, both keep things hidden & nvr admits.
I know you.
I hate the way im bein fooled.When will you realise you should F off?

4 more months.

I am afraid tt i couldnt make it in time.
I cannot deny tt i always hate it, bud i have to admit tt sometimes i do love it.
This is just not the time,
I had left it alone for half a yr,
i've lost all the passion & momentum.
It's hard to pick them up again,
everytime when i try to recall, they r all painful memories.
It occurs & repeats every single yr.
Tt's why every end of feb marks the start of my depression.

I really really want to settle it in this year,
so come back, my momentum.
I really really dont want to do smth tt i dont love it, tt is just so painful.